today i was in a meeting with Niel Hoffman , our president of MIAD. I still feel like i am lacking confidence in knowing i want to return to MIAD. I question the intentions of the school. I feel like what Niel had to say OK, but I felt like Tony was the one who listened and wrote down to really hear what I say but Friday night; and Friday was good. I tried to really keep a positive attitude about things: but the year is really stressing me out. Everything is weighing me down. I feel as if i want to just quit...quit ..quit... but Tonight i finally cried. Just let it all out; i let it all out and prayed and cried out to my father; God; I really wanted to pray that i learn to trust Him.

I know that Jesus brought me here for a reason. i wonder. what that reason is. but i know that God would never give us more than we can handle. I need to Trust in knowing that my senior thesis will be something that God wants for me; and for my life; But i really wonder what God is doing now? What am i learning from this experience of not really understanding me i think people seem to have towards me. I finally just cried and cried and really decided that to really trust God and knowing that God is here and I'm something. and my time is worth it

I know that God is here. and He is making the difference in my work; He pushed me... this far.

See, God has come to save me.I will trust in him and not be afraid. he Lord God is my strength and my song. He has given me victory - Isaiah 12:2