Tonight after Miad Idol, me & Michael went and had coffee, and it was great to talk to him. Hes such a beautiful spirit. We discussed alot of things, and well frankly Im glad God puts encouraging people in our lives like him because i am able to talk to him about alot of bad things that are going on in my life.
I still dont think that kid that emailed me will ever emailed me back he was really bad with communication. And I kept freaking out and he finally just i think gave up on me which in terms ..i just gave up i keep somehow expecting an email... from him but there is none.

So i rely on my friends to hold me in their support, They do and i enjoy that. Also, i wish to really try and understand what it is, that people first inscribe to me , and decided to get to know me then once they find out who i am..they just really dont want to have anything to me. So i am not sure. I dont know although i wish that guy and i would have worked out he seemed amazing.


...i guess nott



thanks so much michael i really really aprreciate your heart and being there when i really needed it your amazing.