Things have sure changed. This summer has been nothing but a journey to discover what it is about myself that i most hate or most love. I figured that im scared of every loosing my faith. It scares me to death a life without God. I think that is what i discovered all summer.

I spent sometime dating, but i again question if thats what i really want? is that what God wants.I have begun to loose site of whats important in my life... I mean especially God. I need my father, i couldnt live with out God... Could you just imagine...

Without His love i dont know how id make it...in my life. thats why i so desperatly trying to show compassion to other people.

I've also discovered a bad side of me : alcohol... ive never been as trashed as i have been this summer. I REALLY. need to stop. its hard when you face pressure from your friends. Who all drink to, and you've had a crappy summer like me. Because your the only one who spends friday nights alone, because you dont party or drink....
so i stepped out and go wasted (well not so literal just typsy).

i guess thats just two things that ive learned one i hate and the other im loving but scared.

--soon off to LGYC to staff. i so desperatley need it. please pray for me.


-always
alex