So here I am. Here I am in milwaukee. I have been here for one week. Surprising isn't it? I haven't been exactly happy here
But I am trying to put a brave face on it. I have been out applying for jobs. The first week I applied for eight jobs. I mean it's been hard. But I am surviving.
I think things are ok. I've been surviving the whole not having food thing, I mean not having school provide me with meals. I've been living on anything microwaveable.
I've been eating pretty well though. It's been ok, although i've been praying really hard to find a job. I have been worried that I wont be able to find anything. I've not been happy. here. So I obviously want to go home. It's been one week.

The first week was to get out there and market myself. really market. 6 jobs in one day. then 2 another day. but when I call half of them back, it's like sorry we aren't hiring anymore. It's TOUGH. being unemployed and young. Otherwise things, have been ok. Last night I finally hung out with my friends. It seems like I had been alone for a whole week, I even went to the beach by myself. It was nice to be me, and by myself but it has been quite hard because I feel like no one. I feel like a meth junky. Because I sleep all day, and get up @ 3 in the afternoon. But tonight I well let's just see didn't sleep at all last night and I got up @ 10:00am today feeling very blah.

Last night I hung out with Paul & Katie. Katie finally has moved above paul with stacia and Kendra. it was nice to see them. Paul has now graduated and I found out that he is leaving for bolivia for a month and also and he is moving to Chi-town with david and scottie (paul's younger brother). Seems kinda weird that paul and I wont be going to school together anymore. But I still will think of him fondly. We went to Starbucks to drink and hangout. They hugged me and I was like why are you hugging me? “Its only been one month. We decided to watch clueless. We are watching the movie, and Paul had his arm around katie, I think they have finally embraced a relationship. They were hugging and snuggling together. I think it's finally embraced to yes I am dating katie or yes I am dating paul. they took this with my computer. I think it's pretty obvious.

After they she left to go get the car, me and paul were left together and I was dying to ask him the question. Are you and katie dating? Otherwise it was nice to see friends.

I went to bed last night with a heavy mind and heart. Knowing that -i really need to get a job, and I am still alone and I've been watching a lot of wedding shows wondering [when will I finally ever get into a relationship were I am fully happy?] otherwise after I had called every place I could think of that was hiring, most of them were reviewing and either or/ not hiring.

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but p.s. I called the sushi-a-go-go place... and I ... GOT AN INTERVIEW!
but hey. it's at 10 and I know im gonna score it, because I have had experience. So but it pains me so much because I want this so badly.
so yes that is it. so peace.
im watching project runway. that I love.