Carry me, Your love is wider than my need could ever be
Come to me, and I will walk along the shoreline
Where Your crashing waves sing in time with the pounding of my heart

Come down, pour out on me
Come down, pour out on me

River deep, could I know You as well as You know me
Constantine, we will travel faster, farther than these
Legs could ever trustworthy be

Come down, pour out on me
Come down, pour out on me

Come down, pour out on me
Come down, pour out on me

I need my Heavanly Father so desperatley.


Today, was a day of all to remember, Today i was working in the lab and working hard on new prints, and i lost my ipod, i sat it down somewhere and someone stole it or took it. I couldnt find and it and i frantically looked around for it and let security know, but i know it wouldnt turn up, and when i left school i came to my room and prayed for God's wisdom to be shown and for the right things to happen with it. Then i realized, what i was lacking was Trust. I need to trust that the situation is in God's hands, and i need to stop worrying about it. It's out of my hands anyways, Maybe it will turn up and maybe it won't. Secondly, I realized don't that it is just a material possession and my dad and i were talking on the phone he said that "i was hoping you realized this, this is not a show stoper, it is a thing." and i realized that, so then i just am hopeful but still in doubt about it. Thirdly, i have no doubt in my mind that God is real, last year it was is He real? Is, God relavant and my life? And now, God has been showing himself to me, believe it, through adventures in odyessy, some of the more emotional episodes have hit me at 3 am and God has been knocking at my heart, through this kid's program. Now i dont feel like there are any doubts. There are even better, things than Ipods, and other things, Also, there are other things, that i must relaize that there are lots of other people who don't have ipods, and why am i worrying about it? I mean yes, its a loss, but at the same time it's a gain, Im gaining things, and learning things that are important. Well thats all, for now, so there are many things to be thankful for and may things that need to prayed for.


" Don't store up treasures on earth! Moths and rust can destroy them, and thieves can break in and steal them. 20Instead, store up your treasures in heaven, where moths and rust cannot destroy them, and thieves cannot break in and steal them. 21Your heart will always be where your treasure is.-(Luke 12.33,34)"

Love in Christ!
Alex




i feel so different when looking at this. i cant really look at this girl in the picture and think that is me.




More than words can express


Fall break is almost... here,
and im fiding myself forcing to get everything done so i can just enjoy the time i will be in chicago.
Such as page layouts, photography work, and various other things that really need to be taken care of.
things have been just so overwhelming for me latley, especially and it just seems like i cry at the drop of a hat. i kinda feel like im having the relapse of depression again, and i've gotten into fights with everyone it seems.
ive cried and cried, but no one sees it. I try and i try but things just arent seeming much better, although i trudge on to make the best of it.
today in Com design 1 i was doing a page layout dedicated laurie, and i was thinking about those words that Elke seem to utter two years ago, "you don't know how cool laurie thought you were" i guess i will never know what she meant by that; and how i told brain steck that i was finally accetped into college, and it wasn't so long ago that we saw each other at winter camp and laurie was there? Two years seem to go by so fast. Things change and i changed.
But to dear sweet laurie: you dont know how cool you are!

Well i think im gonna go wrap pauls b.day present and clean my room!


all the best.