Pale September,
I wore the time like a dress that year
The autumn days swung soft around me,
Like cotton on my skin
But as the embers of the summer lost their breath and disappeared
My heart went cold and only hollow rhythms resounded from within
But then he rose,
Brilliant as the moon in full
And sank in the burrows of my keep

And all my armor falling down,
In a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm,
As I'm singing him to sleep

He goes along just as a water lily
Gentle on the surface of his thoughts his body floats
Unweighted down by passion or intensity
Yet unaware of the depth upon which he coasts
And he finds a home in me
For what misfortune sows,
He knows my touch will reap

And all my armor failing down,
In a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm,
As I'm singing him to sleep
All my armor falling down,
In a pile at my feet
And my winter giving way to warm,
As I'm singing him to sleep


its a pale september


today:

I walked forever it seemed
Carrying my large 4x5 camera.
Thinking about why i am here.

Yesterday
I was stressed out and worried
I didnt get anything done
Im extremely TIRED.

Now,
Im not sure
anymore
♥


So I'm back at school for a week now,

And I'm already fighting for my Life with Christ to stay strong.
It feels so relevantly hard for me to between to people, the Alex who people see who is this angry person and who uses bad language, It is so easy for me to get influenced by the people and friends here. Then there is the person who is so in Love with Christ and who is just so love sick for Him. I thirst so intensely these past few days, and it only seems that I'm trying hard to be this person who Christ wants me to be but it's difficult. I'm trying, although today was such a disappointment, I went to bed after getting home from Rebecca's house and having a fun time laughing about freshman year. I really wanted to go to Church but then there was that tug that said no I don't want to go, I want to sleep like everyone else. I ended up not going, and I spent half the day crying and feeling like I Hurt my self. There is definitely a struggle in my heart from two different sides of me. I know that I love Christ but its definitely hard.

On a more encouraging note,
I was reading barbs blog most recently and she was talking about weight, and loosing it and then I was really encouraged what she said about we should not focus on this - but such things as the weight of my actions, the weight of the world the weight of my heart. This made me come to see that we should be focused more on the Our actions and so forth, -thanks barb!

but I did also have another prayer request
Today was a lazy (Since I didn't make it to Metrobrook) so I decided to call a friend of mine at school who I was going to spend some time with today, So I called him and he told me he had gotten in a biking accident yesterday, and he dislocated his shoulder, so please pray for a recovery for him his name is David. Yeah...So now I have no excuse homework!

desire burning up my mind like a firefly lighting up the sky
my heart is aglow, and oh, I feel you burning up my soul.
I'm a shipwreck; a sailor lost at sea.
You're a tidal wave and you're crashing over me.
I'm caught in your current and I'm sinking,
drowning peacefully.

well, I'm crying out, come rescue me with love
like a child needs a nightlight in the dark
light me up, I'm lovesick for just one touch
you're all I need, but you never seem to be enough

I'm Romeo, desperate for your love
I'd scale these garden walls just to see the rising sun
see what light breaks softly through
it's love that I never knew

well, I'm crying out, come rescue me with love
like a child needs a nightlight in the dark
light me up, I'm lovesick for just one touch
you're all I need, but you never seem to be enough


-He is always enough
Alex